Is Sleepy a Mood?
That's how I feel right now. Also, I awoke with a feeling of jealousy and resentment for rich people who have been given everything they want and never have to work for anything...or even worse....those who have all the money they need, but took a job as 'something to do'. I would like it very much, if they would kindly, quietly, and in an organized single file fashion, piss off. See you in 6 months.
Starting off on the wrong foot
I had no ambition to start a blog. I just wanted to respond to my friends blog and needed to register. Then I thought it might be fun. While thinking of a title, I immediately thought of a recurring idea I've had to track my many moods and irritations. I am on a quest to identify possible reasons for the times when I am cranky; sad; depressed; irritated; anxious; worried, as well as when I am happy, hopeful and so on. My moods change often, not in a drastic way, but I'm sure everyone has experienced that 'feeling', that cloud that looms over you at the start of the day and you know before it's even started what kind of day it will be. I have spent most of my life just thinking that daily moods were random and unpredictable but I was also lazy and didn't want to care. I have decided to care now, so I am going to try and pinpoint my moods (when, where, how, why, whatever) and see if I can identify what makes me feel that way. It must be something specific. I can pinpoint them sometimes if I think really hard about it. And most of the time, it's something I really didn't need to feel that way over, it's just somehow, during my life, my brain has been trained to react a certain way to certain occurrences. I want to deprogram myself from reacting negatively to things that are just wastes of worry. I am tired of things upsetting me or making me feel guilty or self conscious. I am aware that I cannot just omit these feelings altogether, and wouldn't want to. I want to feel them when the time and circumstance is appropriate for that mood. I think I feel negatively at too many inappropriate times, which will probably be obvious in future posts. I don't want to follow in my parents footsteps of overreacting and unnecessary worry over things they have no control over and definitely do not want to pass that on to my daughter. Maybe I can also figure out why I have such a severe issue with being non-confrontational. Read at your own risk, the risk of saying to yourself, "this bi*% is crazy" or "Duh!!!!" This could potentially be annoying, or you may find you feel the same way. Either way comments are welcome. Or not. If not I will let you now. I am going to comment on my friends blog now.
